2012 is here!

This may be a bit backwards, but ill do my new year update before a wrap up of 2011, just for the simple fact this will be quicker. Lol
Now before reading this, remember that I am a 23yr old, try to rememeber that while reading. ;-)
Last night, New Years Eve, I decided to stay home, sleep, and pretty much treat it as any other night I didn't have my child. Is there a method behind my madness? Of course! The past couple years haven't been the greatest, to say the least, and I had spent those NYE's getting completly wasted & spent the rest of the year hearing stories of what I did during my drunken stupor. So, to make this quick, I was desperately looking for a change, and that was what I came up with... wish me luck with this hypothesis. :-)
So after I got home from certification exams & dropping off my daughter, I simply took a bath, got into the sexiest pj's possible (and by sexy I mean not at all!) Then headed to bed. The last message I sent out was before 8pm, so I slept from about 8pm-9am! It was fantastic!
Now I did not spend NYE alone, my old lazy puppy Zoey slept right through with me.  Apparently we were both exhausted!  My new years kiss was at 10am from my wonderful daughter Faith, when I picked her up. :-)
Many people didn't understand my strategy, but those who know my life well enough completly understood. And yes, I have analyze and probably over analyzed my decision before hand. What were the downfalls? Well first of all me missing out on time with possible friends/acquaintances (my bestirs were all out of town), 2nd I missed out on a tradition, 3rd spending a holiday such as this alone could result in more self independence (Dr phil's holiday precautions). More independence ... who says that's an issue?! Really?? Lol
On the perk side,  I started 2012 fully rested, no hangover, no cyote ugly (not saying everyone had that this morning, but its possible for some), and I woke up knowing I was single, which isn't a bad thing, it helps me remember what I can achieve this year, for one graduation! 
Today I have deep cleaned the house, successfully made my first ham and a homemade apple pie that was even edible! This so far shows major success in the year!
Would I recommend this strategy to everyone? No, I suppose it depends the person and/or stage of life they're in (like I said remember I'm 23). For me, it was a great thing! I caught up on sleep, was refreshed to take on 2012, and I didn't have any false hopes to believe in; I'm single (I say it positively) and sometimes its just nice to remember who & what you have in your life that's important.  I have this fully now.
I never make resolutions anymore, but my only wish) is to be happy in 2012!  I feel bad for 2012, it won't even know what hit it! I'm rested & ready to make 2012 amazing!! :-)

23

So, here I am, 2 weeks after my 23rd birthday and of course over analyzing life again.
A song I listened to when I was a teenager was "what's my age again?" By blink 182. The song I can still sing word for word to this day, but it carries on how nobody likes you when you're 23... worrisome?  I think so!
A few days prior to my birthday things started to go downhill quickly. I had friends leave, and one friend bailed on me at last minute... started feeling like the song was true after all.
My big day was saved when my best friend April came to my rescue and got me out of state for the day. We had so much fun That I even forgot the names of those who had disappointed me. (Thank you April!)
Besides the things I physically did for my birthday,  I couldn't help but to analyze my life to this point. When you ask some of my friends about me, they can brag me up to look like a saint, however I don't feel the same, flattered but not the same. I guess that no one really pictures their life at 23 to be like this, with a mortgage,  no degree yet, and raising a 5 year old on your own... well at least that's not what I had planned.
So once again I come up with the questions, have I failed myself? Do I still have hope? Why does it feel like I'm always running a million miles per hour and going nowhere?
Most of my friends are much older then me and I know I subconsciously compare myself to them, but I did have some good advice for my depressing day: "look at how you're doing compared to people the same age as you..." that was Amazing advice that I did need which was followed by a remark questioning if people older then me look back and compare themselves to me when they were my age as much as I compare my life to theirs now? Now That is food for thought!
So, after all the babbling,  I am another year older and hopefully a little wiser. And the best advice about my life is "life happens!"