What blogging is all about

So, after over 6 months into this whole blogging idea, I think I've finally figured out what its all about! I have over a thousand friends on fb, some friends, some family, some clients, some just acquaintances ; this leaves me hesitant at times on what I can/cannot post/share on there as it may give a bad impression of me on whatever level. So, this ends up being a time blogging comes in handy as I can share whatever I want with a minimal (if any) audience that will see it.
Another part of blogging is the "Online diary" per say. Instead of the small notebook style diary that we had when we were a tween,  we now get a site of our own to vent. Now, I for one will not include every detail about my life as I have yet to use certain names or much about feelings/emotions/etc.
This brings me to my third part of my definition of blogging, a way to vent. Instead of calling your close friends to vent about your day, significant other, job, etc you can blog. This prevents your friends from having to hear your story and attempting to seem empathetic. Then you're not only making yourself feel better, you also are avoiding an awkward situation and/or extending the friendship life.
Now, as always there is fine print to this. Certain situations shouldn't always be put on the internet for multiple reasons, but the main one I've learned is that once its put Online, its hard to get it off. So, if your blog is even the slightest chance public domain, don't share something that you wouldn't want anyone else to read. There should also be a limit on certain stories, emotions, etc as these can frame your life to a strange reader that has never met you. Examples of thus could be too many stories of crazed nights, emotional disasters, or even multiple stories bragging yourself up; these can lead to people thinking that you may have whorish behaviors, an emotional disorder (aka crazy!!) Or that you're beyond self consumed.
I try to monitor my blogging, but sometimes its just nice to vent even if I have to do it in code so no one can pick up on who/what I'm truly talking about. ;-)
So there is my Epiphany for the time! This has been an interesting experience to learn, but my main goal/confusion when I started this was "what the heck is blogging about??" So now I have my answer, at least for now. :-)

Tequila

So, this is a topic that has been on my mind all day, what happens with tequila...? People might have different effects from tequila, such as but not limited to: anger, rage, frustration, uncontrollable giggling, sudden urges to strip off their clothing, table dancing, whorish behavior and/or pregnancy. What is the effects on me? Much different! Granted it does put me into a good mood, I may giggle like a school girl, and there may or may not be dancing involved, but the one major effect is word vomit. (For those who don't know the meaning of this, it simply means saying anything and/or everything that comes to your mind no matter what it is or who it effects.)
While some of my friends are terrified to come around me after a margaritta for fear of what might be said, there's a few of my friends who absolutely love this effect and they even encourage it! I have one group of friends where we always meet for a margaritta, it helps us relax, rewind, and vent a bit... or in some cases a lot. Lol! One friend says she loves when I have tequila because its entertaining to her since I don't have anything bad to ever say to her, which is true.
Now, please don't misunderstand this, I don't go out of my way to be mean to someone ever or start fights, I just lose that filter we have that lets us know what thoughts are appropriate and polite to say aloud.
My main thought is how bad is this really? The only things I say are what I'm thinking, which in some cases might not be the best time/place/people to say it around, but freedom of speech is an American right, right? Some of the things that are said might be things I think but wouldn't ever say due to fear or "lack of balls" as some say. For instance, calling someone out who blows you off constantly,  that might be considered a good thing, maybe as a esteem boost or mind reliever when/if you get an answer. That is much better then those times where worse things are said such as "you know how I know you're gay?" To a complete stranger passing by or telling random embarrassing stories about yourself that you normally wouldn't tell anyone besides your best friends. (Those moments get a bit awkward!)
So, maybe there is an answer to fix this , but maybe its not such a bad side effect as long as I'm at the right place with the right crowd.
Just a random thought for the day...

2012 is here!

This may be a bit backwards, but ill do my new year update before a wrap up of 2011, just for the simple fact this will be quicker. Lol
Now before reading this, remember that I am a 23yr old, try to rememeber that while reading. ;-)
Last night, New Years Eve, I decided to stay home, sleep, and pretty much treat it as any other night I didn't have my child. Is there a method behind my madness? Of course! The past couple years haven't been the greatest, to say the least, and I had spent those NYE's getting completly wasted & spent the rest of the year hearing stories of what I did during my drunken stupor. So, to make this quick, I was desperately looking for a change, and that was what I came up with... wish me luck with this hypothesis. :-)
So after I got home from certification exams & dropping off my daughter, I simply took a bath, got into the sexiest pj's possible (and by sexy I mean not at all!) Then headed to bed. The last message I sent out was before 8pm, so I slept from about 8pm-9am! It was fantastic!
Now I did not spend NYE alone, my old lazy puppy Zoey slept right through with me.  Apparently we were both exhausted!  My new years kiss was at 10am from my wonderful daughter Faith, when I picked her up. :-)
Many people didn't understand my strategy, but those who know my life well enough completly understood. And yes, I have analyze and probably over analyzed my decision before hand. What were the downfalls? Well first of all me missing out on time with possible friends/acquaintances (my bestirs were all out of town), 2nd I missed out on a tradition, 3rd spending a holiday such as this alone could result in more self independence (Dr phil's holiday precautions). More independence ... who says that's an issue?! Really?? Lol
On the perk side,  I started 2012 fully rested, no hangover, no cyote ugly (not saying everyone had that this morning, but its possible for some), and I woke up knowing I was single, which isn't a bad thing, it helps me remember what I can achieve this year, for one graduation! 
Today I have deep cleaned the house, successfully made my first ham and a homemade apple pie that was even edible! This so far shows major success in the year!
Would I recommend this strategy to everyone? No, I suppose it depends the person and/or stage of life they're in (like I said remember I'm 23). For me, it was a great thing! I caught up on sleep, was refreshed to take on 2012, and I didn't have any false hopes to believe in; I'm single (I say it positively) and sometimes its just nice to remember who & what you have in your life that's important.  I have this fully now.
I never make resolutions anymore, but my only wish) is to be happy in 2012!  I feel bad for 2012, it won't even know what hit it! I'm rested & ready to make 2012 amazing!! :-)

It makes sense in some countries ;-)

A quick confused message of appreciation (don't worry, that makes sense in some countries Lol). I don't know who ever reads this, if anyone, but I have to admit that after about 5 months of blogging or at least starting a blot, I feel much better. My friends don't have to listen to me vent about as much, I don't have to feel like I sound like a broken record, although I know I do, but its to a web blog rather than a person to judge. Lol
Typically I'm optimistic,  or try to be as much as I can, as independent as I can, and as strong as I can be to give me daughter everything she needs (physically, emotionally, etc). These things will never change, just.like the love I have for my friends who stand by me through everything and most of all those people in my life who can make me smile.
My life may not be perfect, but ill never stop improving it. Previous blog additions have ranted enough about my confusions in life (such as "honesty:...") so i need not say more, at least for now, but no matter what, in some countries it makes sense! ;-)

A quick reflection...

As the year quickly comes to an end, I've been reflecting on the years events, life changes, positives/negatives, and definitely the goals of 2012. Now when I saw goals, I do not mean the so called "resolutions " people commit to then completly forget about a week or so later. When I make goals I give better details, make sure they're for the most part realistic, and things that are truely good for my life, much more then weight loss goals, although those always exist.
So without going into extreme detail to where I need to write a novel, I will simply overview the things that come to mind; I'm sure there will be plenty more over the next few days. :-)
First of all, as always I am always thankful to have such amazing friends! Without my friends,  I'm not sure I'd survive. Between my best friend of 20yrs to new friends that have came into my life in 2011 (or back into my life for a few Lol), each one of my friends are very important to me.
Secondly, id like to reflect on how much stronger I've become towards my ex. Please don't take this wrong, I am not dwelling on the past, I am simply stating that I have made remarkable progress at growing "a backbone" ,standing up for myself,  and protecting my family.
Thirdly,  although the love department never withstands much good luck, I've also made progress there. First with mixed thoughts/emotions towards a dear friend of mine, which is better that we stayed friends; this gave me a chance to open up a bit. The second time wasn't really planned, but around my birthday I met (or reacquainted) with someone who seemed to be pretty good, and was good at making me laugh. Things went well, followed by a period we lost touch, but recently started hanging out again. I'm not sure how that will go or even how it stands, but as an optimist, at least I.opened up more then I thought was possible.
I'm sure there will be.more to come within the.next couple of days, but for now I'm pretty happy at the.accomplishments, big or small, that came in 2011. And this will help me realize what to plan for 2012 goals!  :-)

Honesty: helpful or hurtful?

I have a topic on my mind that has been bugging me all day! Which is better/worse: to be nice & don't tell a person something because it may hurt their feelings or to just be honest with the person & not keep them wondering in the dark...?
I have been on both sides of the spectrum, so I do know this is a tough decision. However, I do think honesty is always better. I've been honest with people just so they don't have to feel clueless or "waiting", I've been told my flaws as well, which at the time didn't feel so nice, but I now know its better then wondering. But most of the time I'm left in the dark, which I hate.
I know I've said it before, but in the love & relationship department I just don't have any luck, unless bad luck counts! Most stories start off with "so there's this guy I like/liked for a while...." and ends with "he says I'm a good friend/ one of the guys..." or "he always has excuses not to hang out ..." the story is always the same, but I guess I just am optimistic or maybe just plain stupid.
So, in the end, I guess what I'm really wondering is if I really want to get left in the dark/blown off time after time or do I really want to hear whats wrong with me/why I'm just not appealing ...? Is there really a good answer? I guess only time will tell!

Christmas 2011

Todays rant & rave is brought to you by Christmas, friends, family, & Faith. :-)
So, as always, here I am thinking again. Thinking about life, thinking about everything. Today is Christmas,  Jesus' birthday, celebration of families and friends, or some might only see this day as a consumer driven crazed festival.  I could see it in any of these, but I'd like to think mainly the first 2. I was born & raised Irish Catholic, so of course I remember the biblical version & celebrate it with my daughter. However, one of the best things about any holiday is seeing family & friends, especially the ones who make you smile. I cherish having enough free time to enjoy Faith and today was a great day for this, even the past week of preparing for it together between baking to shopping to church and most of all unraveling what Santa brought.
I am very thankful for my close friends, they come into my life at my worst times and remind me of how strong I can be if only I can remember a sense of humor, smile, a good laugh & especially a nice pair of cute (yet uncomfortable) heels! ;-)
I am glad I got the chance to spend time with close friends for this holidays, but it also made me think of what was missing or yet to come.  Will traditions stay? Will my close friends always be there? I certainly hope so!
Merry Christmas to all & to all a good night! <3