Life in 2012

Well, since I could always use an update (yes, on myself), I will add the details of this crazy year so far! Just to start from the beginning, a refresher, I decided to stay home & sleep through New Year's Eve as a break away from the normal cycle of going out & starting the year with a hangover. This idea was intended, with high hopes, to bring in a new, improved, and much different year... this has already shown to be true!
I worked through another crazy busy tax season, this time at a much higher education rank/level. I had an eye-opening experience during the season when a raged client told me that I was a "little twerp who has no right to work in that office." This helped remind me that the education advancements I had achieved were displayed on a tiny plaque behind me, unlike my age that is always first noticed. This started my kick on ageism, simply for the fact that I had surpassed a few coworkers of much higher ages, but got much less confidence from some clients based on only this.
I also graduated! How I'd love to act all excited about this and/or announce that I was finally done with this slow painful process, however I started two days later on courses for my bachelor's degree... then it will be Master's... then maybe, eventually, someday, estimated January 2015-ish I will be done for good! Woo...wait it's only 2012... damn!
I also have two of my best friends living here with me again, this has been one of the great points of the year so far! My best friend of 20yrs moved in the beginning of January with my godson and my other friend moved in a few weeks ago with her daughter, but sadly she will only be here for the summer. I know I grew up in a single-child family, but it's nice to have friends that I'm this close to living near! Between sharing clothes to helping babysit when each of us need it, it helps a lot! I feel blessed for having such good friends here!
My baby girl graduates from kindergarten in just a few weeks! She has been so excited that we both graduate this year... Associates degree vs Kindergarten... I don't see a difference! It just seems amazing how it wasn't so long ago that I was watching her learn how to become mobile (that was a fun stage) and now she is graduating kindergarten. Time goes by way too fast and I just want to make sure she can be a kid for as long as possible since I was never allowed to. She is my world and I want to give her a whole different world then I ever had.
I will admit that the one downfall of this year, or at least the past month or so, is that I have not seen a lot of my friends. I have been so busy with school, work, my daughter's activities, and so stressed that I haven't done a whole lot, but just haven't been in the mood or motivation to do much. I think I need a little boost because I could really use some time laughing with good friends.

I have noticed this year that I have been growing up a lot. Thinking more about my health, finances, and future. Actually beyond thinking about it (don't we all think about these things?), I actually have been doing things to improve each area with hopes to improve my life in general. Now my next obstacles will be overcoming my past and eliminating all the negative people in it... I'll work on that as soon as I knock out the other, much larger obstacles first. :-)

Is Enough Really Enough?

When is it time to say that you have had enough? When is it ok to admit that you cannot handle everything thrown onto you? When is enough really enough?
There's probably no clear answer to any of these questions, but we all have to ask them at some point. I will be the first to admit that I have been known to be a little stubborn, independent, or strong willed. I have become pretty efficient with stress management, which also includes being amazing at hiding my feelings; even when it becomes too much.
So what then? What is there to do, logically? There is no time to cry, plus what good does crying do? There are not many people to talk to about certain issues, and the few close friends I do still have don't share the same experiences (yes, I know that no two people have the exact same experience - but this isn't even remotely close) which makes it extremely difficult to explain. Do you sleep it off? This has normally been a great answer except I run on such a full schedule already that there is hardly any time to sleep and lately I just simply haven't been able to fall asleep. The only option I have came up with is to possibly blog about it, this is still new for me, but maybe it will help me feel better even if no one ever reads this... preferably if no one ever reads this.
First, I will say that this in not about any person, especially a guy. Like I said before, my schedule is already packed full with enough to worry about little alone another addition (no offense to anyone). In fact, this isn't even about one specific issue at all. This is a build up of months of little things bothering me and then adding a few huge catastrophes to the mix has caused pure chaos inside of my head. Only one person has asked me about any of it, so I know I still do well managing stress, because honestly who wants to be around someone with a chip on their shoulder with no explanation of why? And really, what good does that do?? None!
The answer, the one I think is right, is to get my big girl panties on and give 'um hell! It wouldn't be me to just let some issue, no matter the size, simply run me over. I will always fight for what I think is right, just, or deserved; so there is no stopping now! The key to all of this is to be able to stop the chaos long enough to organize it all, sort each problem, and match it with a potential solution.
Now, after having a 5 paragraph long argument with myself via blog (isn't that what blogging is for??), I better start preparing for war. One day I will be able to relax and enjoy life for a moment, at least that's what I'm working towards, but to get to that point I must use my youthfulness to conquer the existing and future obstacles.

What do you say when obstacles want to get in the way of your happiness?? "BRING IT ON!!!"